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these few days.. i've been thinking.. i heard you like someone already.. and still stupid enough to wish for something impossible.. i'm confuse.. frustrated.. i don't know what am i doing anymore.. everything is meaningless to me.. my feelings have become numb.. i feel that i have let alot of people down with my attitude[and my playing in band].. and i am very sorry.. and every night ever since yesterday.. i feel so damn freaking asshole stupid.. crying.. is totally wtf lah.. i dont know why i cry.. maybe is i really feel very down lah.. but still cannot cry until.... zzz... argh i'm Dumb i'm dumb i'm dumb!!!!!!... i feel so stupid.. can i just die??.. anyway no one understands me anyway.. and no one would really notice even if i'm gone or died.. right??.. i sucks cans??.. i totally sucks canss???..