#2804'06

am i suppose to keep my hope high.?
or am i suppose to give you up.?
this is confusing.
do you like someone.?
i've been wondering.
why have i fallen for you.?
why.
being in love is so torturing.
actually..
am i really in love.?
or isit just a crush
that will just die one day.?
i'm troubled.
frustrated.
and depressed.
someone save me from this life.

#xxuanllee#
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#2704'06

unwanted..
im unwanted..
why do i feel im unwanted..?..
i hate tis feeling..
tis sux..
i hate my life..
i hate myself..
why do tis happen to mi..
i hav nvr felt an urge to suicide until so much before..
even if my life were to change for the good..
it will nt be the same again..
the tears i hav shed is already waist high..
how much more tears wld it take till it ends..?..
im rili tired..
rili rili tired..
puttin on a smile..
even when im one the verge of tears..
i still put on the smile i hav everydae..
even when people sae bad thing abt mi..
even in front of mi..
i just keep quiet..
i wont scold right in their face..
i wont curse right in their face..
all tis while
i've been suffering the things my mum had done to mi..
frm pri 5 till now..
bias..
wat can i sae..well..its my life..no matter wat i hav to go on..
unless i rili kill myself..
den i wld be free..and truely HAPPY..
and no one will notice nor care even if i rili did do anithing silly..
no one will care..
yes..no one will care..
and i tink shuwei will sae..
'i dun give a BIG damn abt it..'
hahs...in tis world...
im much more towards the below average scale..
as no one cares..
no one does..
even when RILI feel sumting and RILI tell sumone..
dat SUMONE..will just sae..''so..?..''
so why bother telling anione abt yr troubles..?..
when onli when they are in the mood den dey bother to listen..
when dey dun have the mood dey just ignore wat you sae..
.......
after all tis..i rili have nth to sae..


[after being sacked frm prefect..am i supposed to feel happi or sad..?]

#xxuanllee#
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#2604'06

wahh..fuk lahh..
since when did helping sumone
become showoff.??
wth..la..lcb..b1tch lo..
fine lo nxt time ask mi help i ignore lor
nxt time you frustrated i oso dun help lorh..
kaobeiiz..no wonder yr whole family hate you..
go die lah..everyting you correcct..everyting i wrong..
you noe you wrong still cr8 idoitic reasons to prove you are right..
den alwaes sae my fren..
den alwaes sae 'when i was i kid.....'
wth the PAST is the PAST..
wat is important is NOW..
you are a b1tch lah..
make mi angry onli..sae dun wan mi as yr daughter..
i oso dun wan you as my mum..cb..
fukk off lah..
tok tok tok..
i show off..
you more buey bah n showoff den mi lorhz..
dun anihow sae ppl when you are the same..
everytime sae you suffer the most..sumtimes is mi lorh..
fuker..care abt yrself onli..
nv tution oso sco mi..
tuition teacher sick oso sco mi..
i type com oso sco mi go die lah...

#xxuanllee..>=/

#36 april'06
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#2004'06

haha..wattashi wa bake desu yo..hontoni baka..im sick of my life..i rili dunno wat to do animore..im sick of tis..im rili tired..i rili dun wanna continue living animore..theres no meaning to the life im living..everyone hates mi..no one cares..dey onli care for themselves and their loved ones..wat was i tinking..wat m i to him..ha..he a human after all..humans are selfish..i cant xpect everyone to care rite..?..i hate myself..i knew dat cryin was no use bt i still cried..and after dat..cry again..the problem is nvr solved..im such a child..and i tot other ppl was more childish den mi..im such a failure..helpin ppl is nt alwaes gd..it may help dat certain sumone..bt in the long run the one whu suffer is mi..i did not noe wat gt mi into helpin dem.. bt i rili........ wan dem to be lyk dey were in the past..[ahem.. everyone..dun anihow tink..lolx..=p] haiix..i wish i wasnt even born in this world..even my mum tinks so..when my mum tink so too..why did she give birth to mi..she shd hav aborted mi..i wld be much better off being kill when i din noe dere was a thing called earth..a thing called fren..thing called love..a thing called trust..i cld now die rite now on the spot..bt i dunno why..deres sumthing stopping mi.. hate myself..hate tis life..i nv rili happi before..

#1804'06

wahh..sianzation..todae..nv go lit workshop..tio caught by dat kurusamy..den still cor my mama summore..wahh lan ehh kaobeii lorh..cor my mama jiu suan le..den we go back..tio gan..wth..cb lorh..fark lah..she..den my mama oso another one..knn..kick kick kick..farker..den i xplain still keep sco sco sco..kao beiix..blehhx..
aiya no time leh..
XD..
todae beri short..

#xxuAnLee_crApps__2049

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#1704'06

wahhh todae..kee siao ehh..Go to Jurong Enterainment..wit peichi,debra,xinyi,sheeyee n shuweiwahh suddenlyy rain..we tot just small rain..wahh suddenly big.!!..den we chiong to the interchange..wahh too late..!!..whole body wet..nt ordinary wet lehhx..SUPER WET..!!..driping wet..wahhhh..wah den we dere lyk siao za bo..everyone staring at us siax..so paiseh..=X
den we go jurong enter 2nd floor toilet..hahaX..tot we the onli ones whu chiong the rain..bt saw regina,mabelline,cheryl n ruoting..oso same driping wet..XD
den we clean up liao went to ice skating palace..stand at the door blow cold air..[siao..XD]den ltr dryer le..
FINALLY
..go eat lunch..at KFC..den went to library..WAH..SUPER COLD..keep shivering..den maz n sayidi came n join us..wahh we dere tok abt nxt band commitite..den tok abt ppl bad things..[haha..xP]..den tok until beri beri high nehh..bt hor although high hor..i cold until lyk siao..den after dat jiu go home..wahhh kaobeiix lehh..msn gt prob restart dunno how mani fukking times..den finally..dunno how or what i do den can connect to msn..!@$&*)@!#%*..
aiyawahhx..todae..mii horr..dunno look at him how mani times ler..cant stop lookin back..=X..=X i alwaes liddat de lehh..dunno why..XD
kae lahh..
todae until here..

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#1604'06

woos..todae..almost whole dae dota..
sianz arr..althought whole dae dota..
todae i plae is xtra sucky.. sianz nehh..
plae dao yi ban tio gan..@$*@!)%
haiiZzZzZz..gt tok to him nehhZ..
At leAst it made my dae better..=D
and todae chat wif zhao yu again..
wahh..so long nv see u online..
almost forgot about u liaos nehh..
XD..
haiiZ..todae i feel abit down lehh dunno why..
whyy..whyy.whyyyyyy..=.=
siannz arrr
sumhow hor..
i feel dat everyone dun lyk mi one lehhx..
i dunno bt i just hav dat feeling..
haiix..watISdoneISdone..
NOoneCANchangeIT..no one..
haiix...
kae larr..
todae end here

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im sorii

im a failure..
a total failure..
i failed to be a good senior..
and i failed to be a good junior..
i caused them to loose the chance to be a prefect..
just because of my forgetfulness..
i caused them to be even more stressed..
just because of my attitude..
just because im nt willing to learn..
i cant blame anione xcept for mi for all tis..
i oso cant turn back the time to undo all those things..
im sorii..
i rili dunt noe wat can i do..
im lost...
im frustrated..
i dun wan yr care nor concern..
it will onli make mi feel worser..
scold mi..curSe mi..
just dun hate mi..

thousands and millions SORII..

#1404'06

w0otX..XD
so long never update lerhh
todaee funn nehh...~~
go out wit gerald;yuda n pei juan..
lolx. go jp KFC i stare u;u stare mi.
den ltr go sakae sushi . go dere siao siao..xD
den go mix
; soyasauce
; ice
; water
; ginger
; wasabi
; n sweet wrapper
xD..
baka-e[saka-e]baka-e sushi
-.-
went to take neoprint wit debra..
lolx debra so gan qiong..=D
x) noe erm sumone lyk whu liao..xD
kae lahx..dunnoe how describe everything..=X
end here baii baiiX~

HAPPIforONCE
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#0604'06

todae...
rili breakdown ler..
rili goin mental ler..
rili wanna die ler..
i hate myself..
i rili do..
wat went wrong in my life..?
im rili tired..
i rili wish dat i could one night..
close my eyes and nvr wake again..
tis world is full of bitter swit lies..
i onli can drown my sorrow in my tears..
which flows every single night...
well..
i hav no one dat is close enough to understand mi..
no one i can rili trust..
IM WORTHLESS
NO ONE RILI CARES..
LOSIN HOPE ON MYSELF..

MISERABLE..
FUCCKK
I HATE MYSELF..

#0504'06

LOW XUAN LE..
ON 04APRIL'06
WAS SLAUGTHERED
BY LILIAN
AND DIED

her memorial of tat day..
idoit loh..
iiu bias den sae lah..
mai kpkb here loh..
iiu tink i wan to loose the handphone ar..
iiu noe the word'ACCIDENTALLY' anot..
and hor go eat breakfast oso wrong ar..
den iiu nxt time dun eat lar..
scold here scold dere..veri fun izit..
veri song izit after scolding mi..
my bro lost his hp oso buy back for him..
KAOBEIx lah
knn..
exam marks..veri low..
i dumb cnnt mehx..
iiu liddat anihow hit mi insult mi..
will b better mehx..
wrong lorh will get more n more dumb lorhx..
now i rili bth liao..
iiu make mi whu i m todae..
summore..dun anihow insult my frenz lorh..
iiu dunno dem lorh..

sooner or later im gonna xplode lorh..
iiu wan mi to get depression den hapi izit..
fine lorh if dats wad iiu wan..
CONTINUE LAH..!!
I DUN CARE..
HIT..
SCOLD..
XI GUAN LIAO..
NO DIFF..
EVEN IF IIU DUN HIT OR SCO MI..
THE FACT DAT IIU HAV HIT..
SCOLD..MI IN THE PAST CNNT B CHANGED..


FUCKEDupLIFE..
xxuAnLee-allone-nowhereELSEtoTURNto.-

#0404'06

HAIIxx..soo llong neverr postt llerrhhX..
soo siian..allwaes..forrgett..
ttodae..postt ccoz rrememberr..xP
..ii..llurbbe..iiuX..
=.=''..lollx..sae unttiill lliiddatt..
=/..........................................
*slliiencce*
ttiix..yrr..so manii ppll gtt sttead..
heehheeX..jjeallous...=.=''..llolx
llame..ii..ntt jjeallous llahhx..
happii ferr dem niiax..
whenn..wiill ii gett tthe courrage tto ttok tto iiuX..?
ttoo siian llerhhX..lliidatt..
ttodae..wahhX..SWAY..
ii use hp iin cllass..
mrrs kohh saw..
den she conffiiscatte..
shuweii wan hellp mii..
btt..iin tthe endd kenna..
wahhX..gulliitty llehhx..
den ii scarred..
llttr compllaiin tto herr mama..
WAHHHXXX..
CHAMMM
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GOMENASAI..~~


wahhx..ttodae iis dam swayy..

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