Sick-ed

i want to get well soon!!
*coughs*

aww its hopeless.. too many temptations.. argh!! everything seems evilly delicious..agg.. and i end up eating em and have a worser cough. i should have listened to my sick mind. LOL and go home.. lallaa.. tmr.. nothing interesting gonna happen ba.. after all its my uninteresting life. \\= maybe after the up and coming camp, which is this friday, something new might happen.. xD
i HATE BEING SICK.. must remember this fact.. ahaha..
nothing much to be updated on. [=

p/s. to angelina: who are you?

she sucks

OH great. she love to see me cry. she loves my swollened eyes what for?! why didn she just aborted me when she was having me?! and now insulting me like a piece of fucking shit?! she dont understand me. you prefer him and want me to be like him. SORRY LA i cant cause i'm not him!!! even thought you say him until so good.. have you ever thought that he too have rebeled against you till you damn angry before?? i'm not the only one leh!! and please laa.. kill me laa.. i dont want to suffer anymore..my life is hopeless, my heart is confused, my mind is exploding and my body is sick. and how come i still feel so FUCKING VEX and STRESSED EVEN AFTER I TRIED TO SLACK?! this sucks.. can someone just end my life ?. no one understands. not even myself.

its hopeless.

busy weekend.

ahaha this weekend is occupied for me. d= at least better than my previous weekends so boring.. home, com, sleep. okay let me just type out my friday saturday and sunday[today].

Friday.
went to rebond. louis hair saloon wasnt open. ]= sadd so went to look for other ones.. closed closed... then remember still got one more. Vouge hair studio LOL sounds pro.. and the lady boss gave me and offer so it was $90. so cheap laas.. ahahaha and to me kinda worth it. cause last time i did a rebonding was $150. so after that went to find debra they all.. then same stuffs lo..

Saturday.
morning woke up SICK omg ]]= sianed then prepare.. sms debra and xin.. SLeEPING omg.. zhus xD then actually going queensway de.. but end up at mr lee house. KBOX @ home LOL. then after that some play mahjong some play com and the rest of us GAMBLE! wahaha fun sia.. kinda my first time gambling.. never tried before.. i betted 0.50cents all the way. \= and i ended up with LOADS OF COINS omg laaa.. i still have them lor.. sian.. got dinner.. pizzahut and KFC..

Sunday.
woke in the afternoon, called debra, smsed wrong person x= and flu gotten worse plus cough. then despite this still went to debra to queensway go buy 3 Fbt shorts 1 Fbt trackpants then went walk walk around then go eat mac -.- i siao de.. everytime sick also eat fastfood one. ahaha.. then take bus to red hill.. then omg... we took wrong side.. zzz.. we ended up in some ulu place.. i think is one of the clementi roads. -.- then so paiseh and sian lor.. then waited for another buss then we go redhill.. hais.. reach redhill already dark le.. \=then took train to westmall. bought a tube. then debra actually wanted to study de.. but she din bring pencil box. waa sian diao .. then we go walk walk lor..then walk dao 9.50 then zao home le.. lots of fun topics to talk =D


*no photos for uploading*

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d= bored so i went to do this.


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FUCK UP

i have attitude problem. you have one too, so learn to deal with it.

oh and i admit my temper is getting from bad to worse.

its not like i like it.

and to me you are kinda pathetic.

and too attention seeking.

bah.

get crazy with FAHRENHEIT

ahaha everyone now seemed to be going gaga over the drama called "Hanazakari no Kimitachihe"[HanaKimi] in chinese its 花样少年少nu i cant find the word. weird.. ahaha.. kinda nice show too.. but thats not it. ITS Farenheit飞轮海[correct?] which is making everyone screeching. ahaha. shuai ge s' everytime is boy band that gets the most fame de cause to me.. most of the girls would go by posters albums and every single collectable stuff of their star whilst for boys. they just sit and watch the tv . LOL no offence if you aint like that. dont start cursing me cause i'm referingto majority.. lalala.. and seriously even i am going over that guy in Fahrenheit, Jiro. he is simply so adorable! wakakakaa. oh yea i notice something.. i'm just guessing.. will Fahrenheit be like 5566 or F4? like 5566 got famous for MVP + Westside story and F4 famous for Meteor Garden. and dies down after the show is over? and now its Fahrenheit turn gets famous for HanaKimi? and dies down later on? ahaha wouldnt know. who knows they MIGHT be diff but i doubt so. ahaha but JIRO IS REALLY CUTEE LUHHS.






cute!



SHUAI!!



cheeky! d:



帅哥们!!!!! LOL

now.. if only my cousin were to interview them i would bugg her to get a autograph no matter what. x=

slack CNY

waa.. i'm just so lazy to update.. ahaha.. i'm waiting for junjunjiejie[jjjj] xD to upload photos to her blog.. =D no have her msn.. so have ta wait lo.. oh yea! so coincidentally jjjj also wore the same hat as mine! and it so happens that she have a similar outer wear as me! we live in the same(?) generations with the same taste ahaha.. d= big big angbaosss and today i just spent $38+++ T.T
sadded laas.. and tmr going xiao fok fok house bai nian x= condo!! BBQ! evil!! \= lalala..
end here liao ba.. i cant remember what i want to say le..


p/s. deardear<33 back ="DDD

okay its only for me to know..
you guys dont have to bother about me.. x=

angbaosss

HAPPY chinese new year! ppl! [: wish all have big big angbao with loads of money x=
i will update tonight on what happen the whole day =D so look forward to it!

p/s. did i see wrongly or did i wrote i will not entertain tags on my tagboard? and PEOPLE lets not entertain her and lets see how long she will stay here insulting me when no one bothers to fight back with her. [:

CNY eve

hows everyone celebratin' their CNY? reunion dinners? most probly' d= me too.. just a noremal reunion dinner made by my xiao jiu. xie xie xiao jiu. deardear went m'sia go visit grandparents. haiss.. already missing him le.. got 3 ang baos today.. i shall collect until tmr then open all of em'! xD how exciting. wonder how much will i get..the dinner was nice. [: hope tmr gonna be better..
oh yea.! i today woke up with double eye lids! woot. chio eyes for the day.. tmr confirm gone.. so i today took damn lot of photos.. x= tonight maybe tonning the whole night. to wish papa and mama long long long long life [: hope they live till i get married at least if better until my child at least pri school. =DD that be the most ideal plan bah.. [: and why am i thinking till so far away?! still havfe another 1+ yr in shuqun then 3 yrs in poly? or 2 yrs? then spend around 1-2 yrs working..then i be around 21 liao.. lol.. ahaha yeap.. then plan about settling down. [: maybe work longer.. ahaha xD hmm.. should i put back my tagboard liao?.. ahaha.. but if i put back i wont reply anyone via tag but in post ONLY.. -.- cause i be so lazy and du lan to fight with anyone at my tagboard.


p/s the video below was intro by my bro

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nahh.. i seldom put up youtube vids.. but this one is monstrosity!! OMG if i can play like that w/o beatboxing i would be elite!! LOL [: ENJOY!

P/S must watch esp. FLAUTISTs!

quick updates

okay some stuffo[s] have happened to me and i dint update about it..
unfair to "readers" [: and sorry if my blog caused misunderstanding, anger, hatred, and other negative stuff cause of my "bitchy-ness" ahaha. am i really that BITCHY?
ahh heck..
okay quick entries on the previous days..

S.C.H Rehearsal.
wuz pretty good.. but i cant hear some of the sections clearly thou.. percussion was way TOO loud. lol.. and we were giving off sprak when we were playing at SCH.. ahaha.. *spzzt spzzt* and i keep breaking down on those birdie parts.. sian sian sian.. jiasai jiasai jiasai.. \=hmm about it.. and i said it was quick mah..

labels: nice nice nice.

Valentine's Day
where did i go ar? -.-

labels: huh?

Yesterday.
went out with deardear to catch a movie.. Epic movie.. kinda hilarious.. well, some parts not funny loh.. x= i din know what to wear and i stared at my wardrobe filled with mountains of clothes for 15 min. i was scared i overdress.. then aiya just throw on the best outfit that suits me.. ahaha.. that outfit i wore actually makes me look taller.. x= and make me look more hourglass figure x= kinda laa.. if you dont think so then never mind. \= watch watch watch then go makan.. ahaha.. then walk around.. then jiu go home le.. that stupid 187 SOO long then come loh.. -.-'' afterwe got one th bus.. dont know got one auntie speak english and then say happy chinese new year in advance ahaha.. and no one replied her x=.. then after that we got off. saw cass. OMG -.- aiya.. ahaha.. then deardear pei wo hui jia.. then i got home straight away sneak in to bathe. aiya! tio caught by papa my papa say "wah go dating ar" -.- last time no bf i treat it like a joke now have le i will think alot.. LOL. then end of update..

lables: LOVE love LOve

TODAY..
BORING nothing to say. saw a shuai ge in Kbox its always him x= ahaha cute guy. but those guys are only meant for looking. and maybe i'm planning to work in kbox after o's.. or not.. depends.. [: oh yea.. why i keep bumping into jacky de!! not that i dont want to see him. but we have nothing to say, and its so awkward. LOL. ahaha he looked so uncle. x= he lil bro looks so much cuter loh.. but thousand times more annoying. and i saw a walking trash today[tianshun].. [x

labels:bored bored bored

notice!

Quick note for those who dont know how to use the chat box down at the right column. first go set your name! so i can identify or reply you. [: and then if i'm not online and you wanna chat with me on the spot. dont close the window. leave it there. i will get back to you as soon as possible. [: thanks for your attention anyway. cause i'm simply getting too much unknown ppl. =]

cooookkkiiieeee

today was not sucha great day? ahaha.. i din wanted to go band today.. and then actually i just wanted to say i sick then i go home rest ma.. but then i really started to get dizzy spells.. and my head started to hurt. ALOT.. ma de.. then i went home straight away peng at the sofa =D.. ahh shu fu nehs.. xx= then 1hr later i woke up feel better le.. i want go back sleep but.. cant sleep le.. then decided to do a bo liao thing..

BAKE COOKIES!

wuz super bored lor.. but now the cookies i bake are at least decent liao .. but then i aint that perfect yet.. the first batch that went in.. i let it bake all the way.. 14 mins.. then wahh.. burnt!!.. ]: then tasting time.. not sweet enough\=.. how? how? never mind i clever .. i put the sugars as toping for the second batch.. yay.. put it in for 11-12 mins.. yaywait for it to cool down annd voila. and it tasted quite nice too. =D
hmm com got prob.. cant upload the pictures.. ahaha..
i want go sleep awhile d=.. sayo..

sian-ed.

in this post i'm not gonna be very crude but i'm just stating my opinions and feelings. if you dont like what i have written.. you can just simply fuck off. lots of parts are "censored" but most of the people will get my censored parts.
please if you think i'm a bitch you can just click away the window.
if you stay on you will only get to curse me in front of your com. cause theres no tagboard.
so, too bad. [:

why do people keep saying things and dont mean it.? and i know i have done something wrong punishment dont make anything better right? o yea.. it did add-on something. that is my hatred towards you.i'm a failure. face the fact. everyone has their limitations. mine is here. i have no more motivation to keep me from going on.. this sucks. i tried my best. but, i just cant make it through?.. i'm sick of the line "you can do it. just try harder and dont give up" why dont i see you like that. oh yea.. you are good thats why. i'm lousy i have no talent.. and i give up easily..i give up on myself. what can you do? encouragement? have it ever helped before?.. showing your hypocripe-ness.. ever thought about it before?.. im rebellious. so what. i like to do stuff i like without telling a reason. why can i do that?... and they think they can control our live just by saying some stuffs?.. please use actions to show instead of just talking.. i dont trust them till they made some results..but then again.. i'm such a failure.. the whole section is already down.. and i'm still whining here? ahaha.. no one thinks about how i really feel. and why do they think by just punishment i can get better.. going late for band.. reasons like overslept are lame??? if you say my grandma fell and i took her to hospital. then i call it lame.. overslept its like its unexpect one right? unless you say you have never been late for band before.. and you know what?..the most unfair thing of all is.. that hoh.. how seniors punish a member cause they talk or done something wrong, and the seniors do it and dont punish themselves.. and you expect us to respect YOU?.. think about it. if you were the junior.. how would you feel?
i agree its hard to be the bad guy too.. but do you think punishment is really the point here.. and you told them. come band, go sectional, play instrument then go up combine, play somemore. and then go home. ISNT THAT WHAT WE WERE SUPPOSED TO DO?!?!?! AND you still have the cheek so critic that your band life is so boring!! what the fuck? and moreover, what were we suposed to do at sectional? PRACTISE! what are we supposed to do at combine? PLAY! then what were we told to do after band? GO HOME!. what are we not supposed to do during band..
lets list them out then..

• no talking*
• no handphones
• no slouching
• no hand signals*
• no talking to other people during band.*
• cannot slack during sectional.*
  

okay.. this were what you said. notice the *s what are we supposed to do then?.. if not play.. stare into space?. oh no.. no slacking.. sleep?.. its still called slacking.. play of course!! think before you speak please..and this was the third time in band i have *-------* .. scold me weak scold me pampered i dont care though i am not pampered but i am weak. i admit. what can you do to me?.. what can you do if i stop going?.. just like daanish he can leave whenever he can.. which is so zzz..
and sometimes i think that we are just your part-timed friend.. who was always on your mine if you say friends?.. it not us right? and when have you tried to sacrifice for us?..
ahh fuck.. i dont wanna say anything anymore.. in case i offend more people.. just like that "emily" i did nothing to provoke her just that my bitchiness did the job..

thats it for now.. i know i have not been updating. but my laziness overcame me.. thats why.

PEACE!

peace and quiet is all that i need in this blog. thats all [:

woot excitting.

wahahaa.. entertaining tags.. ahahaa.. nice... thanks those who help me to say back to her [[= loadsa thanks man.. i din have to waste another post to say about how hum ji people ar.. ahaha.. nice nice.. its entertaining me loads. thanks. okay.. time to update about the last weekend 3rd and 4th of February.

3rd of Feb.
Wedding dinner of XianKang korkor.. [:
he and his wife so sweet.. and of course the food is those typical dinner foods. of course.. it rocked. d= shark fin's! mixed dish.. forgot the name of the first dish.. then got duck.. then got rice.. then got..fish..prawn.. scallop.. and last of all.. lao sai dessert x.x paiseh to those who like to eat the yam desserts.. ahhaa.. my cousin said it was lao sai plus vomit when i asked him what was it.. nah.. actually had lots of things to say about that day but i dont remember!!.. and shao hong shao qi shao cong SOOO CUTE LAAs.. hyper active boy. bowl-cut boy. and shaolin disciple. xD 3 cutiiessssss.. but too bad they are scared of me, oh well.. shao hong USED to love me ahahaa.. as he was the first to be borned.. but soon i got sick of entertaining babies.. but when i see them i cant resist to pinch their cheeks laa..
okay.. thats about it for the wedding dinner..
p/s i'm too lazy to post the pictures now.. maybe the next post. [:

4th Feb
went SHOPPING.. with the budget of $200 woot.. and i spend it like how i waste water.. -.-.. sad.. bought something and 2 shirts and a skirt still hunting for a cheap nice shoe.. yeap i'm damn budget de. ahahaha.. i went to bugis and plaza sing. bugis was like a a sea of people.. like particles in a solid. okay.. out of topic.. ahaha.. you get what i'm tryin to say ,ya? crowd ed till we cant really move around.. especially the bugis street. ahaha.. how i hate crowded places.
then next destination was plaza sing.. i went to look for something then went to i.p Zone to buy clothes.. now i love i.p zone style. ahaha.. nice nice nice.. then actually nothing funny happen anywhere.. which leads back to a point - MY LIFE IS SO SIAN-ED.
oo.. i saw a flying ball.. erm.. nope.. its a flyin bug..
omg? AHHH!!
ahaha.. crapp.. ar..oh yea.. lets stretch this post longer.. ytd... me and xin when to k box.. the boy there handsome luhhs.. ahaha and the girl so cute.. look cute and talk cute.. ahaha.. then me and xin sang and sang and kept playing with the voices and we end up laughing and singing and going off-pitch at every sentence. embarrassing but fun.. ahaha..

okay.. i updating here and keeping track of my tagboard.. interesting.. emily ehh is that really your name?.. why are you doing this stuff dont you find it bo liao? isnt it stupid.. going to another person's blog scolding her and insulting her.. i guess you hate me damn lot laa uhh?.. aiya.. heck.
anyways.. i doubt you are anyone i know ba?..

what the fuck is wrong with my personality?

i feel weird.. why cant anything just go smoothly for me.. why cant anyone be just neutral to me.. am i so good to be hated.?

to .. : when and what did i offend you, and in what way?and who are you to say deardear like that.. and do you know baka has a similar meaning as baichi? so in that case its the same as typing baichi baichi. which just sounds stupid..and you typed twited. were trying to disguise yourself so i wont ever know who you are? if thats the case. its pointless.if thats the way you type. i have nothing to say except that the fact that you are a twit and i simply dislike twits. and the way you phrase your whole sentence is weird. okay. i dont want to offend anyone.. and please laa. if he'd wanna fuck me why would he find me? is not like i'm particularly sexy in anyway.. and its not like i am so damn chio right? i admit i'm not ugly but at least i look decent right?and if he defined me as an easy target. wouldn't he tried to fuck me already? and please laa.. do you even know us or you are just a damn bored passerby? or you were those previous anonymous taggers who insulted me? if you are.. am i that fun to be provoked? i dont think so.. i dont give a damn about those and i just say them awhile and i forget about them..

SERIOUSLY.
am i a damn fucking bitch that everyone loathes?
but really laa i cant really find a reason to related those irritating tags that had insulted and indirectly insulted me.. for this one.. i simply cant find any.. of all the couples in singapore. why me? maybe i should stop tagging in my tagboard and let them just say whatever they want in there? ahaha.. or should i stop blogging?
anyway i'm not much of a great blogger just a typical girl-next-door type of post.
i have much prefered to read blogs than to update em'..

and whats wrong with girls buying rings for boys?
let people laugh at the girls only?.. i hate those kind of boys.. says stuff without thinking about how hurt the girl will feel.. why must it be always the boys to buy the stuffs?.. why cant the girls buy stuffs?.. i dont understand.. girls buy boys buy wont it be the same?.. the stuff will still be there right?.. boy buy girl buy.. its just the matter of taste.. and everything boy buy is old fashion sweet but the must is simply just unreasonable laa..

oh yea. i'm a virgo. i'm bossy type i want perfection. i trust my judgement. and i have my own believes. i want to do alot of stuffs. i trust my taste in things. i believe that whether girls or boy buy thing for each other.. its sweet.. and i will not say its the thought that count. its just simply sounds stupid now.. but i also have my sensitive side too you know.. to *** you : you didn want to help me thats fine.. but you din have to say things to hurt me right?.. i never met you before.. need you say such words to indirectly laugh and insult me? i dont really know you that well how would i know if you said that was meant jokingly anot.. and after that i asked you a question but you din reply me.. whats your point of sayng that sentence to me then?

why is my life so miserable?.. i wanna cry.. i wanna die.. why cant my life just be peaceful? maybe i should seriously think about stopping to blog.. after blogging so long what did i receive in return?... endless ruthless insults hurled at me.. what did i exactly do?? sec 1 i was hated my everyone just because i like a boy and was scolded a slut cause i like that guy.. what did i do? i just innocently liked him! thats all!.. sec 2 my mum scolded me whole day cause i was with my friends and i suffered from negative-ness.. and now sec 3 i still get bitched in my flute playing and how i act like a senior and how i behave and how i study.. sometime i wish i would be all alone so i can dont care about anyone else and i can just care about myself only.. or better end my miserable life.. saving me from this fucking world's torturing.. and now because of me... dear.. got insulted? ahhh.. maybe i should really just stop blogging and delete my blog..

confused by the people around me.

hmm, ever felt stuck between decisions?..
or had your answers already but was still stuck at decisions?
hmm you may understand my feelings then..
i felt ssooo helpless and stuck.
i hate that feeling..
the feeling of being burdened with decisions..
everything is decisions,decisions,decisions,decisions..
]= why not just follow around since theres nothing to do?..
i dont know what to do!!..
i feel so stuck between these two factors.
i want go with them also what go with you!..
but if i want to try to compromise..
but you are sian-ed and start to give du lan attitude..
i know like you feel left out or something
but it not like i can be with him EVERY TIME..
RIGHT??? and i really don't mind even if you bangseh me..
i really don't.. but every time i go with you was because
i din want to make you feel left out or feel anything that you aren't supposed to feel..
yo are a good friend but when sometimes
you give that questioning look that makes everyone feel that
you are angry just pissed me off.. cause its like i have done nothing wrong
and you are there giving me that face..
and when you are with her
i purposely left myself out..
so at least you get to say thins to her that i'm not supposed to know or complain about me..
(= but really i dont mind at all..
sometimes i just cant stay angry for long with the people around me..
and i just keep the unhappiness to myself and
thank goodness for my Stm-ness and i end up forgetting about it
and only when i'm sad i will think about it.. [=
you are a very good friend seriously but sometimes.. you dont act like one too.. \=
hope you'd understand me that i'm not critisizing you or bad mouthing you here.
and instead just read and forget.. (",)
*
ahaha.. okay lets talk about today.. supported liang wei at the audition singing thingy..
ahaha.. then we went outside school..
deardear's gang wanted to play soccer so..
me and xin went to put our bags at the mama shop there
and then xin pei wo go buy curry puff.
yum.. so long never go there eat their curry puff le..
ever since the bubble tea shop ran away. ]=
then went back there to look for cat.. found one but it ran away.. aww..
then do abit homework..
but we end up no mood to do cause the damn f* wind was tooo strong.
so we chat abit then jiu go how sun house watch let it shine..
i watch finish jiu zao le.. and then walk home..
then dont know what time reach home never see..
then here i am blogging [= my bloggiebug is back from vacation
bloggiebug: she is one uncreative blogger [:
well cant help it! i'm just too lazy to think of ideas =D