RE: recalling the past..

finally i have decided to post something.. well it my not be interesting but i can blog anything i want mah :]


re-looking at my past archives..
makes me compare how i think and what mind state i was in..
ahaha.. of course there was the twit typings..
but to me since the first post..
the biggest change in my life was having my dear dear hubby by my side..
i remember the few times i had tried to attempt suicides..
try killing myself try torturing myself..
as i was alone.. no one was there for me during my need.
no one listens to me wholeheartedly..
no one really understands me as i am..
or just accept me for who i am..
i was just plain miserable then..
even when i started to crush on my dear hubby before we were together..
things often turn out to be the worse to me..
almost everyone discouraged me..
i almost gave up..
despite tried once already.
i decided to try again..
and things started to turn good for me..
everything was starting to be great until one december day.
my leg acted up on me.. and things turned to the worst..
friend saying bad stuffs about each other.
i once even thought of giving up..
but i held on..
(lol like what drama sial)
then soon the ups and downs turn to neutral
and gradually there were more ups than downs already..
and most of the times.. the downs were cause by my think too much blain..
uh, i mean brain.. and my mother and past troubles..
but ever since my terrible moodswing have subsided..
thanks to of course the most important man in my life.
my dear hubby, lim cheng zhia.
i have realized i am really blessed to have him by my side encouraging me
and lecturing me if the need came..
although some of you may say i'm being mushy.. full of this kinda words..
but...
this post is really to say that i feel blessed as my hubby is here with me..
if there wasn't him.. i wouldn't know what would have happened to me already.
whos knows i may have already have gotten depression.. :D
or hospitalized for attempting suicide :D

i'm veh lucky le i should just enjoy life and ignore the bad stuffs. :)


w/ love
saaphir

nong nong time :]

its been a damn long time since i have blogged..
any one miss my posts???
:p damn sian luhs.. i keep forgetting that i want to update then
always end up not updating.. bah.. and now i'm ending up with loads of unshown pictures.. shall find one day and post them all out :] today.. i still have no mood to be happy..
oh yea.. i have been having reaally bad mood swings lately.. and i'm hating it.. and no one seemed to care :[
bah.. maybe after my mood swing gets better then i shall blog a super long post to blog about :] thank you veh much for your kind patience :]





w/ love
saaphir

RE: to the COPYCATS

hmm.. WHY!!





why cant a person have their own creativity or own style?? OR JUST AT LEAST ask someone for permission to copy one's idea.. maybe style you can copy BUT one's creativity is something that can make one REALLY piss off. my creativity, i admit, is limited. but to me.. my creativity in stuff.. well people might start to spit at me but mine is better than some people.. but some are, of course, better than me la.. but.. for those not better than mine.. who may be good at copying.. zzz. they copy.. and who do they credit? themselves.. okay la.. but actually i'm quite fine with it la. cause i'm not the ONLY one in this world, or rather.. singapore having the idea or style or whatsoever.. BUT if you wanna have the style and copy the idea. DO IT NICELY!. DONT GO WITH THE TREND IF YOU WONT LOOK GOOD. zz.GEDDIT? i'm sick of looking at people blindly following the trend and say they have no money. and when they have no money. they plead their parents for it. and when they dont give. they work. and they mix with the wrong clique. they turn bad. blah blah blah.

dam.. when did this become a lecture?.

so the best thing is.. have your own style. even if you a similar style to another.. NEVERMIND! as long you look pretty/handsome. or even just decent. no one will really say anything nasty to you. (no conformation). :)

have a nice day folks :)


w/ loves
saaphir. :P

RE: anti- COPYCATS!!

I HATE COPYCATS!!!!

well couldnt say i aint one but!!! at least i ask!!. FUCKERS. shall elaborate more tmr or aomeday else. venting my anger on my dumb keyboard :D

RE: Catty day :)

7th anniversary. to me and hubby :D








today is friday!! which mean i can sleep late late!!. :D
today i got to get out of class early! :D 11.30 finish school. :D
then went to yuhua village mac with 3A girls and makan lunch. then after that jiu go band.. played follw the river, glorioso.. bah bah bah.. okay after school eat chicken rice.. and i pok ka liao.. T.T
gossiped and gossiped..
girls favourite activity.
after that abit hot and don wan stay in coffee shop so we go to near basket ball court there sit sit then i went to find cats.. found a kitten.. chased for it all over and it ended up right on a tree..
its just simply adorable. :D forgot take picture.. too bad..
play around.. found another black kitten but lost track of it..
and found another cat but not a kitten liao.. but it was damn friendly cans..
but when i approached it and after 1-2 stroking of it..
to my disgusted horror..
the cat's cheek to neck part
the skin was dangling on a tiny support..
the skin was like some what burnt.. the flesh inside was bloody red too.. with some hints of fresh blood. debra and xinyi saw the cat and pitied it so much that they almost cry.. but as for me.. i just wish i could do something to help it.. ahahas..we fed it with milk.. it drank it up almost immediately.. hais.. i wanna start a anti-cruelty to animals program. but of course dont include talks, which i suck at. but of course got free little tokens for supporting..
but nah.. maybe when i grow up.. but not now. :)

for now there will still be no photo due to my consistent chiong of naruto. thank you for understanding thou :D

w/ loves
Saaphir*

RE: long long time..

how long did i last update my blog le?







bout' a week ba. sorry ar everyone. :X thou quite alot of thing happen but.. theres is nothing very grand for me to update a long long one for a post. and by now most of the events i have mostly forgotten.. :X and i haven upload the photos.. gahhh..

oh. why i never upload and forgotten ar..

naruto lo. :X i have been too busy chionging to finish up the naruto but till now i have only chionged till.. about 136. there is still about 220.. not including shippuden episodes. dang. okok..

i shall think up of the events i missed updating..

YA!

FLUTE SECTION@ tohguan sectionals.

:) i'm so glad i have committed section juniors. :D and all of them are so adorable and.. blur. ya. :X
all of them turned up! even angie. :) yuqi too.. the only person missing was yao ming only lo..
theres some handful of section photos with out yuqi and yaoming [will upload when their ready ;)]
and they learn fast :) xcept for one or two.
despite having committed members.. still need a good leader to lead well.. i still think i ain't a good one. o still make darn lot of dam stupid mistakes.. oh well. i must work hard.
kampate yohs! ;)

OTHERS..
start school so many days .. i still haven find ANY of my MIA holi homeworks. shitshit, yea.. i'm gonna get loads of em' soon luhs.. eh. actually i have already received heaps of it from xiao ah ong aka Mr Noel Ong.. not solely hurling at me lah.. but at a group..[i still got heaps of it ma!]
hmm.. why i keep feeling that i MAY retain not that i WANT to but a feeling.. zzz.
3rd term.2nd week.
late coming. 1 time.
days absent. 2 day
incld excuse to go home early.
told to get out of class. 2 times.


whats next :D.

recently having gastric pain.. FUCKED UP gastric. :(
yea, really fucked up.


p/s. tmr got band i'm gonna get to see and interact with those adorable junior of mine. :3

p/s/s. TMR is hubby and my 7th month anni. :)

[last one]p/s/s/s. THANKYOU eVERYONE for your consistant visitations. :D arigato nehs!