RE: recalling the past..

finally i have decided to post something.. well it my not be interesting but i can blog anything i want mah :]


re-looking at my past archives..
makes me compare how i think and what mind state i was in..
ahaha.. of course there was the twit typings..
but to me since the first post..
the biggest change in my life was having my dear dear hubby by my side..
i remember the few times i had tried to attempt suicides..
try killing myself try torturing myself..
as i was alone.. no one was there for me during my need.
no one listens to me wholeheartedly..
no one really understands me as i am..
or just accept me for who i am..
i was just plain miserable then..
even when i started to crush on my dear hubby before we were together..
things often turn out to be the worse to me..
almost everyone discouraged me..
i almost gave up..
despite tried once already.
i decided to try again..
and things started to turn good for me..
everything was starting to be great until one december day.
my leg acted up on me.. and things turned to the worst..
friend saying bad stuffs about each other.
i once even thought of giving up..
but i held on..
(lol like what drama sial)
then soon the ups and downs turn to neutral
and gradually there were more ups than downs already..
and most of the times.. the downs were cause by my think too much blain..
uh, i mean brain.. and my mother and past troubles..
but ever since my terrible moodswing have subsided..
thanks to of course the most important man in my life.
my dear hubby, lim cheng zhia.
i have realized i am really blessed to have him by my side encouraging me
and lecturing me if the need came..
although some of you may say i'm being mushy.. full of this kinda words..
but...
this post is really to say that i feel blessed as my hubby is here with me..
if there wasn't him.. i wouldn't know what would have happened to me already.
whos knows i may have already have gotten depression.. :D
or hospitalized for attempting suicide :D

i'm veh lucky le i should just enjoy life and ignore the bad stuffs. :)


w/ love
saaphir