zzz.

Today is the last day of 2006..
it seem so..so.. fast..
tonight i shall think of my new year resolution(kinda lame.) but at least create a goal for a brand new year, ya? so tonight's post shall be about that..*moans*
ahaha.. ytd.. i went to lirui's house celebrate ruizhi bday. ice cream cake *yum* gah i'm gonna be fat. photo time. clan photo shoot. wtf? me and zhiyi subb nia.. damn.. then still need take photo together.. ahaha.. zzz.. hm.. then maybe next time i shall up load the photos. "The Cousins" ahaha. then.. i at there also rot lo.. but at least got chat with lirui, bout that stuff -__-''. then see photographs.. and play with xiao you.. ahaha.. then see them play dota.. zz totally sian diao.. whole day din chat much with dear.. wonder what he doing ahaha.. \= wonder if i'm too sticky.. s= ahaha.. then soon si gu zhang, fecth us home.. wee.. so smooth and fast ahaha.. then go home.. then nothing to do.. aiya.. hmm.. today also not much stuff happen.. only thing is i went to ruizhi's house..
ahahas.. sometime i feel so out of their group ne.. because of my mum. i cant go anywhere.. i missed lots of outing with them and now they have watch the 2 movies i have been waiting for.. without me.. how am i supposed to feel. surely their mind must have said 'you never come mah.' but i cant blame them too cause i cant expect them to wait for me till i can actually watch it then pei wo watch mah.. but.. somehow.. i feel so... soo... kinda disappointed.. hais.. sometime i feel that just staying at home is better than being out there with them, ya know like..i wont get into trouble for being out so late.. wont get craps from my mum, wont get nagged for using so much money.. and most of all wont really feel like out from the group or what so ever shits.. zzz.. this kinda feeling simly just sucks.. and how do i entertain myself while they are out there having fun? nothing! and when they come back and blog about how much fun they had.. i just simply closes the window. the gang dont need me, the gang's having fun without me,
the gang's more happier without me and everything will be even more better without me.. these are what goes into my mind when i read your blogs.. ahaha.. i have no rights to stop you.. but i have my rights to say , ya? i aint trying to destroy all of ya'll mood and stuffs.. but i just cant bottle everything up anymore.. and what makes me feel insignificant is.. when ever i go out with you all.. only one person or 2 will listen to me.. nobody really listens.. when i wanna leave nobody bothers.. and when i give suggestions nobody cares. which one of these shows i am part of you all? which?! none! this reasons are those who are unsignificant peoples! i'm insignificant. yay. zz

p/s i doubt any of you is gonna read about this anytime soon. but i just want to le you all know.

1. i am just speaking my thoughts out here.
2. please dont think that i;m trying to stop you all from having fun.
3.if you all get angry or affected by me and end up blaming my post. so-rry.. please read (1.)
4.please if you happen to read this post. just jolly well.. read and forget. i don want to have any personal grudges with any of you..

p/s/s no need for sorries in my tagboard *if you even have the thought of writing a sorry in there.. cause READ REASON (1.)..and (4.)
thankyou.