DUMBASS

FUCKING LIFe.
am i really considered in the group? am i really that insignificant? why am i stupidly following you guys like a dumbass when your dont even care about my opinion?
i have no rights to comment on you guys. but, here. i'm just typing what i felt. i dont want go trouble my friends with my frustration n problems.. my only way to vent my frustrations n problem is to either torture myself or to type in my blog. dont worry, torturing, doesnt include cutting of hands or poisoning stuffs, those are just plain stupid or plans for suicidal. today was the day which made me realise lots and lots of reality stuff. first of all, i think i'm not considered in the group as in like i dont feel belong in it. it feels like i'm just like volunteeringly forcing myself into the group.. sounds annoying? i think so too. and if you guys really treat me like part of the group.. you all should notice me, right? but not only did you notice the big obvious change in my face n attitude, and i feel so consistenly left out.. and when after school you all were planning to go where.. n stuff. you din really care about my opinion, right? you guys treat me like. for example. if no one want to go to do something you would ask me as i will pei you de.. and really i feel that way. and something today made me really feel that i my opinion dint really mind at all. i really dont know what to do. i know now complaining and stuff sound like one person and i know you guys will know who i am talking about.. but.. i dont care.. arghhhh.. you all start to hate me after this post i have nothing to say. i meant no harm.. i'm just here to SHOUT my problems out..