难道我只能永远单恋你吗？

i've grown out of the childish mindset of mine since 2 years ago.
i've sworn to not shed a tear for this dumb stuff.
i thought i could be more okay about this thing.
i thought i was ready for this already.
i thought i thought that it was impossible.
i thought i thought that they would make a good couple.

but.

why? why am i feeling this way?
why is my chest feeling so tight?
why is my heart feel that it has been crushed?
oh why oh why can't i just live a life without a guy in my head?

or am i just destined to forever have this unrequited feeling for you?

its time for me to give up you once and for all.
i don need another conflict to arise.
neither do i need another heart wrenching news.
a friend even say he isn't worth it.
but yet, i held on.
why? is the question which keep revolving around my mind.

FUCK the thing called love.

i have no mood to blog about today, even though i tried something interesting.
i may update about it tmr. but my mood is currently going downhill.
so don't expect anything.