sad post ahead.

SPEECH DAY:
super hot.. sweating. hell loads. and broke down hell loads too.
i'm a failure.. ]=
perc instrument.
made me sweat like hell.. then. after the whole thing we almost forgot marimba and 2 timpani and 1 base drum.. me, xinyi & cass found ourself alone at that stupid fucking hall carrying the timpani.. and the four of those strongest boys still at school was busily helping out in the buffet. WTF. and there goes my temper -.-.. zzzzzzzz.. ]=
today i somehow just feel so lousy... zzz.. especially after the performance. \=.. today simply is not my day.. every second passed with my tears wanting to fall for no reason at all.. i dont get this feeling at all.. why am i feeling like that?? ]=

AFTER THE WHOLE PROG:
i had a feeling of missing out on that concert. but what can i do?? i cant go definitely.. ahaha.. just one of another concert i have missed already.. i seriously wanted to go.. ahaha so i missed CJC concert.. everyone in my gang have gone for the concert. so hanged with cassandra loh.. ahaha chatted abit then go out of school.. go mama shop.. continue chat.. then pei cass wait for bus.. jiu go home le..come home use com.. change blogskin.. spent the whole few hours doing that.. and after my cousins gone home.. my mum started her BF[bitchfit] again.. zzz.. made my mood more worse.. hais.. oh well.. lifes never perfect, ya?

maybe the reason why i'm feeling so bad and the reason why i lost my temper was because of PMS?.. lol.. argh i shall stop here le.